Friday, June 03, 2005


That's all I have to say about today so far. Don't you hate when you wake up in an awful mood, and then things just keep happening to make it worse?

Today is the kind of day when I was in middle school, and I would go with a chip on my shoulder, looking for a fight with someone. I'd always find it too. Once I got in a fight with this blonde girl, that I never liked...and truthfully never liked me either. This particular day she was making snide comments, and I decided enough was enough. The bell rang, and we headed out of class, I threw my books down on the floor, and we went at it... Would you believe this little girl actually knew how to fight...I mean she was throwing hooks and's was hilarious. I don't fight like that, I fight like the typical girl stereotype, pulling hair, pushing..slapping. Basically, I fight like a sissy. You'd be surprised how far you can get that way though! Anyway, she didn't kick my ass, I'd say we were about even, which was a first for me. All the other fights I had been in I always found myself having to stop and ask them if they were ok (no kidding) she held her own, I have to respect that. It was one of the last fights I ever got in. It was in the 8th grade, and I was to soon move on to better things in High school.

I wasn't this angry child..don't get me wrong. But in 6th grade I went from a small town rural school, to a school in the heart of the ghetto in Kansas city, so as one of the few white kids, I had to prove myself more than a few times. If I hadn't they would have continued picking, and that's just not in my character to take that for long. By late middle school I was in a much better school, but still had a huge chip on my shoulder for some reason. Go figure.

Anyway...Today I am grumpy beyond belief. It doesn't make any sense either, because just last night I was in a great mood. It must be hormones or something. I'm still trying to figure out if people are trying to piss me off...or it's just me seeing it that way. It's probably the I'm trying to hold back any comments I might regret later on. Wise huh?

I put Finding Nemo in the DVD player....if I can stop stewing over things, I think it might help. I love Dory. Love Love

Have I ever mentioned my crush on Ellen Degenerous? Not in that way...but I really really like her. She's the only celeb I would ever care to meet. She's so fun and carefree...she's awesome. Love her.

1 comment:

Brandy For Sale. said...

I LOVE Ellen, too. I just think she's awesome. To go through all the bullshit she did and then come back 10 times stronger- she had the last laugh. And I do so love to have the last laugh!